at the end of the day

I realized something while reading Brian McLarenss book Generous Orthodoxy. First, those who criticize Brian for writing it obviously did not read the first 15 pages of it, in which he declares pretty plainly that the book is essentially his perosnal thoughts and opinions on the subject at hand, and however informed, he is bound to be wrong about some things. In fact, he even states he realizes that he is probably wrong about some things he is pretty sure he is right about. I like the humility. It's refreshing. But I digress. that has nothing to do with what I realised.

What I realized is how meaningless life without and others centered focus is, and how self focused I am. It's no wonder I am confused anout my position in life. What good does it do Christ if you are brilliant, full of wonder and ideas, and ultimately selfish?

The other thing I realized is that while God continually provides for me, I don't trust Him to provide for me.,

I don't know how/what I am on to here, but I see a journey.. I feel like I've been on a never ending journey. never. ending.

time for a bowl of chicken soup. No. really.